“Yesterday, my life was headed in one direction. Today, it is headed in another. Yesterday, I believed I never would have done what I did today.”

I’ve been running lately. My playlist starts with the U2 song “California (There is No End to Love).”  It seems like the right song for the moment, a song of finding hope and rebirth not in denying grief or in totally getting past it but in acknowledging that we need to grieve, that there’s no end to it and that this speaks to the endurance of love.

California, then we fell into the shining sea 
The weight that drags your heart down
Well that’s what took me where I need to be 
Which is here
Out on Zuma 
Watching you cry like a baby
California, at the dawn you thought would never come 
But it did 
Like it always does

All I know 
And all I need to know is there is no end to love

I didn’t call you
Words can scare a thought away
Everyone’s a star in our town 
It’s just your light gets dimmer if you have to stay
In your bedroom
In a mirror
Watching yourself cry like a baby
California, blood orange sunset brings you to your knees
I’ve seen for myself
There’s no end to grief 
That’s how I know

That’s how I know 
And why I need to know that there is no end to love
All I know and all I need to know is there is no end to love

We come and go
Stolen days you don’t give back
Stolen days are just enough

Yesterday, I believed I never would have done what I did today.

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