We’re All Assholes
I don’t even know who the asshole is anymore. The heartbreaker. Is it me? Is it them? Did I fuck it up? Did they? I can’t sleep thinking about what goes wrong. Thinking about what gets lost. How everyone gets used to things being this way.
That’s what it’s like when you’ve had your heart broken
The world just shrugs its shoulders and keeps goin’
It just moves on in all its sadness and glory
Over dinner with a friend, I tell her my story
And as I finally put the book back on the shelf
She says, “Maybe it’s time you take a look at yourself.”
No one’s born an asshole, it takes a lot of hard work
God knows I worked my ass off to be a jerk
Loving without loving is always the worst crime
I know all the signs and signals ‘cause now I’ve been on both sides
The way you choose your words, the limpness of your hand
I almost died when you introduced me as a friend.
“How can you call me a friend?
If you don’t love me, then please have the dignity to tell me.”
But I never said any of that.
I just shook that hand and looked down at the doormat.
The sun rose over the city, the wind swept through the valley
You don’t get over a broken heart, you just learn to carry it gracefully
I was playing the game Road Not Taken recently, and at one point, a villager said to me something like, “I know I shouldn’t feel this way, but I can’t help my feelings. I’m jealous of all the time you’re spending with X.”
Then she said:

The game then informed me that this character and I had gone back from being friends to acquaintances.
Chatting with a friend about the game, we had this exchange:

Who fucked it up?
I don’t know.
We’re all assholes.
But the getting used to it part, the carrying it gracefully part. That’s the part I can’t figure out.
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