wanting in

“I want out but only because I want in and there is no in with him,” I tell my mother.

“There is no in with anyone anymore. Nobody wants in with anybody.”

“So what am I am going to do?”

“Nothing. You can’t do anything. That is your problem. There is no answer for this. When are you going to learn that there are just some things you will never understand? One day it will just work and you won’t have to do anything other than what you need to do.”

From “No, That Wasn’t Our Happiness” by Masha Tupitsyn

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from People in Trouble by Sarah Schulman

I don’t know how anyone could live that way. I want in or out. All or nothing. I want that place where people become real to each other.

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