Jens Lekman and the fight for moments that can’t last (me in your arms)
“all creating , no matter what, is always depending on your presence, your connection to something important”
Though life sometimes makes me feel like an alien, I’m human to the core. Jens Lekman always reminds me of this, as he did this morning when my phone shuffled up this song I hadn’t listened to in a long time.
Listening to the lyrics this morning, I knew that the song had to have been inspired by the film After Life. I then found this blog post by him in which he talks about watching the film here in San Francisco in December of 2005.
Back to work. Back to school. Tracing the bread crumbles back to where I came from. “But all creating , no matter what, is always depending on your presence, your connection to something important, your happiness and perspectives on life”. A friend said that. I’m gonna print it on a T-shirt.
My life is a big mess but it’s ok. I have all I need here: A lemontree, a christmas tree and some friends. The sun is setting over the hills and some kid is playing piano next door. Have you seen Kore-eda Hirokazus’ “After Life”? It’s a movie about a station between life and death where the newly dead go through their memories for one special moment that they will take with them into eternity. It’s actually my favourite movie of all time and I was thinking of it as the last rays of sun disappeared. Be still my heart.
“If I had to choose a moment in time
To take with me into eternity
I would choose this,
This moment with you in my arms
I have a love
I have a love for this world,
A kind of love that will break my heart
A kind of love that reconstructs and remodels the past
That adds a dryness to the dry August grass
That adds the sunshine to the magnifying glass
And makes me fight for something that can’t last
You in my arms”
Even if it can’t last, it still represents a connection to something important. I think I’ll know when I don’t need to fight for it anymore, but for now, it’s something I need to fight for in order to create, and I need to create whatever it is I’m creating. Myself, I guess. It’s a manifestation of my love for this life and this world, a love that sometimes breaks my heart.
“My life is a big mess but it’s ok.”
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