on the brain/on my mind
I’m not asking you to say words like yes or no
Please understand me, I’ve no place I’m calling you to go
I’m just whisperin’ to myself so I can pretend that I don’t know
Mama, you been on my mind
When you wake up in the mornin’, baby, look inside your mirror
You know I won’t be next to you, you know I won’t be near
I’d just be curious to know if you can see yourself as clear
As someone who has had you on (her) mind

–from Girls, Visions and Everything by Sarah Schulman
Lila universalizes Jack Kerouac. I universalize the feelings in a song written by Bob Dylan and performed here by Rod Stewart.
I feel like I know just how Lila feels about Emily.
What I wouldn’t give to take in the nightlife from one spot, to see it and feel it on the street and know that it belonged to me as much as it belongs to anyone, and then to be found, disheveled and grinning.